Now that I am in school, I am around all types of people. And it was a reality check about how we are truly in a dying and sick world. I had a wake up call and I had to repent. The biggest distraction I believe can be ourselves. We can get so inward focus about what we are going through, what we don't have, what are lives are like I had to repent for that. Material possessions will burn up in the fire and every gifting given by God will not longer be needed when we die or when He returns. And yet, I am the most wealthiest person because I know Jesus Christ personally and intimately. However, those, who do not know Him, are the ones who lack.
My heart broke to the truth here I am walking around talking about what I want to do in my life and what my heart's desires are. But then, I go to school, I hear the heart wrenching stories of people in pain, hopeless, dying, and wanting to die because they do not know what to do. Jesus said in Matthew 9:12"Those who are healthy don't need a doctor, but the sick do.....vs 13 "For I didn't come to call the righteous, but sinners."
As Christians we forget what the purpose of all the giftings and the purpose of the teachings---to demonstrate what Jesus is really like. The giftings isn't for us, the anointing isn't for us---its for those who need a touch or a word from God that will snatch them out of the hands of the enemy, that will rescue them out of the most dangerous pit---that who Jesus died on the Christ for. Personally, I think a lot of us sit on pews on Sunday morning want to be spoon fed and wanting and wanting and wanting but not what wanting to give away what we already have. When having Him---we have everything. We lack nothing. Romans 12:3, Pauls says, not to think of himself more highly than he ought to think." When "WE" is all that we think about and talk about isn't that thinking too highly of ourselves and our situation. "I can't do this, I don't have the faith for this, I don't know what to say, what will people think, what about my ministry, what about my family, what about my finances, what about my prophetic words, what about my calling, what about me, what about me, what about me?" Now I am not saying that we are not to come to God about us---however, for those who've been in the church for years, being imparted to, have the Holy Spirit and still just think of themselves....there is a problem. Just a thought.
As believers, we are the most wealthiest people on the planet. We are His children, He knows us by name and when we die, we will forever be in eternity with Him. But for those who don't know Him---our hearts need to break because I know His does. He wants to be known to the world and our duty is to make Him truly known. But first we got to get out of the way---and allow Holy Spirit to move the way He truly desires to. And the way to do that---less self-conscious and more God-conscious. Being other people minded than innerward focus.
The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is upon me,
for the Lord has anointed me
to bring good news to the poor.
He has sent me to comfort the brokenhearted
and to proclaim that captives will be released
and prisoners will be freed.[a]
2 He has sent me to tell those who mourn
that the time of the Lord’s favor has come,[b]
and with it, the day of God’s anger against their enemies.
3 To all who mourn in Israel,[c]
he will give a crown of beauty for ashes,
a joyous blessing instead of mourning,
festive praise instead of despair.
In their righteousness, they will be like great oaks
that the Lord has planted for his own glory.
He has sent us, anointed, giving us these graces for purposes that are in BOLD letters. Jesus, have mercy upon us---deliver us from ourselves so that we can be about the Kingdom and about what your heart is all about.
My point of saying all this is that---Jesus died on the cross for broken, hurt, messed up people---and we complain because we just don't have what we want.
We have Him, that is more than enough. He is the greatest gift and we get to share that gift to others. Let's get over ourselves so that we can impact a dying sin sick world and release God's love on the earth.
